For once I did what I said I was going to do, without any backtracking or changing my mind. I started my 6 week challenge on Monday and I am stunned at how much better I feel already – maybe it’s just psychosomatic, but whatever, it’s working.
Exercise – Running in the evenings has been better than I thought it would be and although it feels like harder work than running first thing in the morning on a completely empty stomach, it just seems to fit in better with my schedule now. The big test came on Tuesday when it was blowing a gale and absolutely hammering down with rain. But out I went and had the streets pretty much to myself – which was just as well since I looked an unholy sight in my waterproof get up. My only waterproof running jacket is way, WAY too big for me in all directions and because I could not find my usual running hat (due to all that bloody sorting out I’ve been doing lately) I decided to put the ugly waterproof jacket hood up and pull the drawstrings really tight around my face to stop it blowing down in the wind. I looked reeeeeeaaaaaally . . . special!
Nutrition – I’ve taken my vitamins, instead of just looking at them in their bottles and paid attention to what I’m eating. So far I’ve also made the effort to really vary my diet. It’s helped that I come back from my run feeling absolutely ravenous and has provided the opportunity to eat more muscle-repairing fruit and dairy and actually enjoy it. The only downside to all of this is that I have to plan what I’m going to eat and do far more in the way of kitchen prep (and shopping) than I’ve ever been used to – what a lazy cow I’ve been all these years! My fridge and food cupboards look like they belong to someone who actually eats at home now, albeit someone who’s a little OCD – everything is neatly displayed in clear containers and carefully measured, labelled, dated and rotated. What kind of health freak am I turning into? Before you know it, it will be bowel-cleansing coffee enemas all round <—— NEVER going to happen – coffee is for tasting, not wasting and I regard some parts of my body as exits ONLY ;)
Well-being – The thing I’m struggling with at the moment is the thing that should require absolutely no effort – meditating. I just cannot settle to it. My head is so full of mental scribble that it just won’t empty and quieten. I know it’s early days but patience has never been one of my virtues. I’ll keep trying and try not to berate myself if I can’t do it. It does annoy me though, because it’s probably the thing that is going to help me the most. I am, however, sleeping better at the moment, getting out in the daylight and fresh air at lunch and getting to grips with yoga too, which have all helped me feel less stressy.
Mental Stimulation – I want to keep learning, so I had a long look at doing another online course. Flippin’ heck – how bloody expensive are the courses now?! For the moment that route is closed to me so I have to think of something else. I have started reading on the bus journey again, but since I like reading nice juicy murder mysteries, I’m not sure that’s going to stimulate my mind in a particularly healthy direction: When my brother first died I honestly found myself looking at the people around me and wondering why someone wonderful like him had died when there were all these useless bags of skin still walking about who could (and perhaps even should) have died instead! It became my entertainment to imagine I was looking at people through cross-hairs, mentally picking them off one by one (not murdering them as such, just swapping them for my brother, you understand)! That phase passed, but it’s still funny to look back on – I’d have swapped the lives of my entire home town, just to have my brother back and thought it a fair deal. But you get the point, I think I need to find another genre for a while.
Well that’s about it for now. Apologies for yet another pictureless post, but I’m enjoying the easy life where blogging is concerned at the moment. Sorry! :)